Procrastination is probably the biggest evil in my life at this point. I have SO MUCH to do and yet I just procrastinate. I always find something to procrastinate with. It just stresses me so much in the end, and still I don't learn. So, I thought I should just sit with myself and figure out why the heck do I do this to myself. Arghh..
Big projects: Whenever I have a big project coming up, I just keep looking at it like this big mountain that needs to be climbed. The more I think about it, more I don't want to do it. Eventually, I do climb it- but I just waste so much time thinking how can a tiny me climb this big mountain. To deal with this mountain- I have started to break into smaller doable chunks. I now set breakpoints over the journey and maybe small rewards or naps when I cross each of them. Rewards motivate me!
Worry: Sometimes I worry about the results. I have this fear of failure or not living up to the expectations. I feel like my family and friends believe in me and I don't wanna let them down. But, I need to stop worrying so much about this because I know the people who really love me just want the best for me and they won't judge me if I am not being perfect.
Laziness: Honest confession- I am very lazy. I lack discipline. I have tried everything I could to change this but I still feel like a sloth. I keep pushing myself so much, but I barely budge. To help myself with this, I try to schedule tasks and make lists so I have a timeline to follow but I still end up with a lot of pending tasks. (Really need to do something about this!)
Clutter: Be it my room, or my mind- clutter makes me really overwhelmed and I have seen I feel much better and productive when my room is clean and organized, and so are my thoughts which means my personal life needs to be in order because I sure can't prioritize when it comes to feelings. I am fully aware we cannot control a lot of things that happen in life, but I am trying to control my attitude towards them so I am more practical instead of overly emotional.
Mis-judgement: I also tend to overestimate myself or not take in account several things that can happen everyday. I pack my schedule with things that I need to do, and I forget to set aside time to rest or eat or time for random stuff that may come up. And, obviously this leads to pending to-do lists giving me stress. I am trying to be mindful of this habit of mine, and making some free time each day.
Do you procrastinate? How do you handle it?